So I had a little adventure with my trainer who in the moment had a pregnant girlfriend. I did it because I was feeling lonely after a breakup, i know that is pathetic but I got tired of acting strong when I really wasn't. Anyway we had like a affair but not really because we never had sex just kissing and touching and a lot of deep talking until I put a stop to it. For so many reasons, principal one, I got tired of being pathethic too and because I noticed we both started to get feelings and I was pretty sure that I did not want anything serious with him from the beginning which I always told him, and did not wanted to be the other woman. Right now he is single but still lives with his baby momma because she cannot afford to live independently and because of the boy, which was born last week 😊 And I just want to say that I am so proud of myself because I know what I did wasn't right and it was selfish ( couln't see it in the moment and not proud of that at all)but I did manage to get out of it and started to get my life under control. And I had to wrote it somewhere because I don't have anyone to say it without judging me.