Just venting

Just frustrated. I’m 13 weeks pregnant with our third baby. By the time this little comes we are going to have three under three. None of these babies were planned, we just really like one another and I suppose God thinks we can handle it. Aaaaaanyways, before getting pregnant, I was running around 20 miles a week, kept the house incredibly clean, and played around with recipes. After becoming pregnant I have lost all motivation and energy. Not depressed, just exhausted constantly. Anyways, the last few days have been like a complete 180. I have energy for a vast majority of the day now, getting the house back to it’s former self, playing with my other two, and just feeling more like myself.

I go and call my hubby and talk and I bring it up and his stupid ass says, “are you sure you didn’t just see you are in your second trimester and figure you are supposed to have energy so you gave yourself some?!”

The fuck?!?! No son! He doesn’t get what my days consist of. He always says this shit too. He thinks my allergies are all in my head, and other shit too and I’m soooooooooo fucking frustrated. I have told him I feel so much happier this pregnancy (my second one I was PISSED the entire time. I held my tongue a vast majority of the time because I was MEAN. No joke, just a straight up cunt and it really put some strife in my relationships with him and my friends and family.) but all he does is roll his eyes and says, “yeah, sure...”

What the fuck?!?!

AAAAAAAAAAAH! I really do love him but I want him to know. I want him to know what it is like to have all your energy stripped from you but still expected to take care of two very energetic and head strong children only for your spouse to come home, hoping for a fucking break, for the spouse to go sit on the toilet for 45 fucking minutes while you cook supper with the kids pulling at your legs but you can’t yell and scream back. Uuuuugh 😞😩 I really do love the man but seriously!?!?! Give me SOME sympathy you ass! Haha

Thanks to anyone who actually read this! I needed to just get hat off my chest. Currently locked in the bathroom hiding and writing this.