I don't know

I'm a freshman in highschool and I was depressed in seventh grade. In sixth grade, my best friend moved out of state and I never talked to her and I had other friends, but they wouldn't talk to me. In seventh grade, I went into depression but got out of it by eighth grade.

Today I was looking through a story that I wrote about my best friend and I went into like an anxiety attack or something. I was stuttering in my mind and I was just shaking back and forth and rambling. thinking about what had happened in the last few years and nothing like this has ever happened to me. I can't call her because all of my contacts go wiped out and no one will listen to me about her

How can I help myself?