tmi - is it falling out?!

okay this post is very juvenile but I have to say it... my husband and I have been ttc for 6 months and still no luck. there is a part of me that feels like it's not happening because his sperm is "falling out" 😖

no matter how long I lay down after sex or lift my hips when I wipe up afterwards it seems like it's all right there. I know! it sounds crazy and no, this isn't a joke.

anyone else ever feel like this? I mean there has to be a lot that actually stays in right?? haha