I miscarried in July and it was my first pregnancy. The feeling of loss was unimaginable. I had never felt like that before, never lost someone. After several months I thought that my grieving period was over and I could talk about it easier. And then October came. I don’t know why or how but I felt like I was experiencing my miscarriage all over again. Obviously not physically but the emotions just all came back like a wave.

My mom is a midwife and while she herself never experienced a miscarriage, she has been present for other’s losses. I went home to visit for her birthday this past month and she surprised me with a present, on HER birthday.

We named our baby Leaf.