So I just found out I’m pregnant yesterday, 4 weeks and one day today. I take birth control so this wasn’t exactly planned and definitely a surprise but at first I wasn’t sure how I felt about this. On one hand I’ve always wanted to be a mother and I love my boyfriend, he’s an incredible man and treats me like a princess. I’m 26 and he’s almost 35 so we are past the teen pregnancy scare stage and have even talked about getting married and having kids in the near future. We also both have great jobs so finances aren’t an issue. On the other, we REALLY haven’t been together long (6 months) and we don’t live together. Being so new, no matter how much we care for each other, would definitely be a hurdle for co-parenting. When I initially told him he was understandably a little worried, especially considering we were being safe (combo pill, taken perfectly I might add) but asked if I was ok and was being overall caring. When I saw him that night he was so sweet and kept putting his hand on my stomach while we were cuddling and rubbing it and asking if he could get me anything, I knew neither of us were 100% sure that we wanted to keep this baby but it was nice to know that we had options and were keeping an open mind one way or another. With how supportive he was being I was starting to feel like I might really want to keep this child. But everything changed in the morning and whatever fear he had kept back broke lose and he’s been a total wreck. He’s dealing with stress from work so I understand but then he’s telling me that the only thing he wants is for me to get an abortion and that if I don’t then ”you can have YOUR child without me and get a check every month.” Ouch. I felt like I’d been slapped in the face. If it wasn’t so out of character for a normally incredibly caring guy I would have just left. I ended up crying in the bathroom and he came in to bring me back to bed and cuddled with me. He apologized later and said he would support me in whatever decision I made but he’s still a complete wreck. As upset as I am for how he reacted later I can’t help but feel a little guilty for wanting something that I know could ruin someone else’s life. I personally think that it has the potential to be a blessing in disguise for both of us and I know it’s my body and my child as well but I feel like both the mother and father should have a say in bringing a life into the world. I want my child to have everything, including a father who wants them and loves them. I just can’t do this alone.