I need advice regarding my love life & my ex!!!!! š
(This is kinda long sorry š)
So hereās a little description of what you need to know: we were dating for 7/8 months, been broken up for 7. Heās a Scorpio, Iām an Aries. Heās in a frat (itāll come up why itās important to know )
So my ex and I have been broken up for 7 months now, but we still talk to each other literally everyday. I can only recall us not speaking for like 2/3 weeks when we first broke up. We still hit each other up & talk as if weāre still together. I even drove down this summer before school started to see him & stay the night at his apartment. We basically do couple stuff but again weāre not a couple.
So,Back in October we had this big ass fight basically about him not opening up to me about his feelings (if I can find the screenshots Iāll add them to this post) & our relationship in general. I went to his apartment the next day & we had this long face to face talk which resulted in me basically crying & spilling out all of my emotions and feelings for him. That talk did result in us getting some sort of progress though. And we ended up doing a few things but we didnāt go all the way.
So yesterday, I went to his apartment after I finished taking my last final. He was super happy to see me & I know cause when he misses me he either stares at me a lot (which is every time he sees me lol) or heās overly affectionate. He was holding me a lot & kissing me on my forehead which he knows is my favorite. He was bringing up a lot of the things we did as a couple too. Like we made a playlist & dance for you by BeyoncĆ© is the first song on it & he started playing it talking about this is the song that made me start thinking of baby names when you played it for me lol. He even brought up my old YouTube channel. I used to make makeup tutorials lol. He started watching one of the videos & was just telling me how beautiful I look & just a bunch of cute shit lol. Heās always been very supportive & still is & vice versa, as I am with what he does.
Last night was just honestly the best. I hadnāt planned on sleeping over but I did & I loved spending time with him. We cuddled, watched movies with his roommates & were literally hugged up the entire time. We again, acted like an entire couple. Not to mention, we had sex but it was passionate & nothing like I ever imagined. Heās a Scorpio & Iām an Aries (I probably shouldāve mentioned that earlier lol) & if you know anything about astrology those are the two most sexually compatible & most sex driven signs. We were so connected & because we know each otherās bodies so well it was even more passionate. It was truly that, I love you sex. It was so beautiful. We took a shower together after which may be cheesy to a lot of people lol but itās my favorite act of intimacy. You scrub my back, I scrub yours. We went to sleep & he woke up with his arms wrapped around me & I was just on cloud 9.
Which leads me to my next point & why this all has me left in so much confusion. You know how I said he was in a frat? Well I feel like when he joined & ever since heās been involved in it heās been doing things that appeal to his homies in his little frat. I was always supportive of him joining it cause it can create a lot of opportunities, but I donāt like how itās low key changed him. Like thereās been so many rumors going around that heās been sleeping with other girls which Iāve suspected. & because Iām not his girlfriend I donāt see itās my place to bring it up because at the end of the day, we arenāt together. But I feel dumb for constantly still talking to him & wanting to create something with him still with all of this potentially being fact.
Not to mention, I know he still has a lot of feelings for me because not only has he told me but I can just tell. Ladies, we know when a man is in love with us even when they donāt say it & thatās exactly how Scorpios are. They try to be mysterious & heartless (some actually are lol) but theyāre honestly sweet & the most emotional/loving people ever. They just hide behind their pride too much. & thatās him to a T.
Anyways, I just feel as though heās sending me mixed emotions & I donāt know how to interpret them. If any of you lovely ladies could help a girl out & give me some advice on what to do I would appreciate it. I know this is super fucking long but idk how to tell short stories ā¹ļø lol
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