many who have read my past posts know my relationship was on the brink of ending.. we talked and its over. BUT im still staying here and we still act like a couple. we agreed to just put romantic feelings aside. im happy and he's happy. more than before. we are helping eachother more than ever. he is a great guy and he didnt put me out on the streets. we might try to make it work. for now what we are doing feels great. hes more open now which is amazing. we talk more we actually text and call while hes at work if he has down time . we kiss we cuddle we have sex more than before. ive been cooking every night we eat together and the food doesnt sit there to get cold minus for when i made pot pie it had to cool off. but anyways im defiantly changing and so is he and we are doing it together. he doesn't even message other girls all the time anymore like when we talked he said he wouldnt and he's kept his word.

he would tell me he wants a woman someone who can clean cook work watch the baby like someone he can mutually depend on . someone who is doing her own thing but is still motivating him. who knows i may actually be his woman we just didn't know like im starting to do what's best for me too like applying for college.

im becoming independent and is because now that im not worrying about him cheating i can focus more and hes supporting me through this. hes always pushed me to make myself better but i had a downfall when everything started going wrong. now i feel great. we are closer. we don't say i love you since no romantic feelings are involved but we do love eachother as people and respect eachother and that's what i see is coming out more.

im happy and hes happy.

oh and i can stay here until i get on my feet but he wants me to put college first.