I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m to the point of simply trying to exist and do what’s best to keep this baby healthy until he’s born in March and then surrendering him to my fiancé and leaving. I’m angry and depressed all the time. If I talk to my fiancé about it he just gets scared and won’t leave me alone because he’s afraid I’ll do “something silly.” Our life isn’t bad, but I’m miserable all the time and I don’t know what to do. I know a lot of it’s hormones, but having a partner that doesn’t understand is making this very difficult. He just keeps asking what’s wrong with me and why is it I act like this. I’m awful at hiding my emotions, but that’s all I can do right now because he’s threatened to take me to the hospital and tell them I’m suicidal when I’m not.

He keeps saying he doesn’t know how I can’t put ‘mind over matter’ and get through this. That’s not how depression and anxiety works, but I don’t know how to explain it to him when I’ve tried a thousand times.