So I’m really upset, confused, and scared. My last period was October 19 which would’ve made me 8 weeks Thursday. I took three tests on November 25th, all three positive. I had my first ultrasound yesterday and didn’t really get the outcome we were hoping for. Basically here’s what happened.

The baby is really far to the right and they couldn’t get a heartbeat because it was up against the wall. They think I’m only 6 weeks and not 8. They’re having me come back again on Thursday of this week. The midwife (I’m supposed to see a doctor but the midwife was the only person who could see me) said everything was fine and not to worry, but it’s hard not to. She said that if I came back in the afternoon there was a chance they could get the heartbeat, it’s all about the position.

I’m kind of freaking out. There’s such a huge difference between 6 and 8 weeks. Granted, I have always had a very unpredictable period that’s late so that doesn’t surprise me. But every week is another milestone so going back to 6 weeks just stinks. I was going announce on New Years and tell my family on Christmas. Waiting for Thursday is going to be torture. Has anyone gone through this before? Should I be worried? I just want my baby to be healthy. At this point going back two weeks doesn’t bother me as much as the fact that I didn’t hear the heartbeat of my little one. That’s all I wanted to hear. Im so scared! I just want him/her to be healthy and growing... and move to the middle! It makes me so nervous that it’s so far to the right. No one really told me that I had anything to worry about, but I didn’t really get many answers either. It’s torture!