I quit caring

I quit caring about wanting a bigger fanily. I need to put the flame of desire for us to have our own child out. I also suspect he is sterile l. I've done everything I can do since I found my tubes were obstructed 100%on both sides. It doesn't feel like he cares or has put that much stock in onto doing more. I've did everything, he barely gave up or changed his lifestyle living which in return can be the reason for sperm being low. And of course were never going to stop hearing about everyone's sex life equalling to a baby being creatd. I just want to crawl under a rock and die,it feels so humiliating to know our bodies won't let us create life while others can. I hate this feeling. Here's to true love,being too broke,and the inability to have m

ore kids. The new year just means one more year of the same heartache over and over for 12 months,then it also means its closer to menopause.