Overwhelmed sorry this is long

Christina

I hate hate when nighttime comes. I get so frustrated with my little one. Usually i work overnights but I’ve been on leave and it’s a complete nightmare. I feed my son till he lets go give him ten minutes or so to make sure he’s asleep lay him down only to have him screaming 5 mins after putting him down. I wait a few minutes to let him cry then pick him up get him bk to sleep only to have him repeat the screaming after trying three or four hours i finally give in and feed him again only to have him repeat theses steps sometimes up to three hrs. Am exhausted frustrated and hate breastfeeding at this point. It hasn’t gotten easier and he’s 5 months. He’s ebf on demand and gaining weight why does he freaking eat for over 30 mins to only be screaming for over three hrs if i put him down. Am a single mom with no help i repeat no help and am at my wit ends and ready for work at this point. Any suggestions on what am doing wrong would be greatly appreciated. I dont like feelings this way and i hate when i lose my patience with him he’s only an infant. Please be kind with responses Am not perfect but am trying i didnt abandoned my son like his father did. Thank you.