Sadness

I had what I thought was going to be an amazing day. The start of my holidays and my birthday this coming Thursday. But my heart crumbled into a million pieces after my ultrasound appointment. I am supposed to be about nine weeks tomorrow so I was expecting a heartbeat and instead I got no heartbeat and uncertainty. I sit here in limbo sobbing on the couch with the dreaded realization that I probably miscarried. :( Its my second one in 2 years and now I’m ready to give up. It’s too painful. 💔