So I just needed to vent a little. So my husband and I have been trying to get pregnant with baby #2 for 6 months which really isn’t long compared to most of you, but our first one came in just a month so it has discouraged us a lot. We recently felt like maybe god was telling us something so we both sat down and agreed we would stop trying cause maybe we just aren’t ready for another. Well I still had a chance and i guess I still possibly could, but I took a pregnancy test today cause I couldn’t wait any long dumb me and it was negative and knowing I agreed to it to that we weren’t ready, I bawled my eyes out. I planned on getting back on birth control after the the 1st off the year. Knowing it will be another 2 years before we have another one just kinda hurts. Its so weird because we both wanted another one now but we both also agree that maybe its not the time. I’m trying to be positive, but its hard he is deploying soon so maybe thats gods way of telling me its not time to have another one.. idk?! It just really bothered me. God has a plan though and I’m leaving it all to him. I know some of you are probably going to be like omg seriously but I just really needed to vent. We didn’t tell any family about ttc we wanted it to be a surprise because everyone is wanting us to have another as well. (P.s my period isn’t suppose to come till the 25.) yaya great Christmas gift.