My husband and I have a 2 year soon to be 3 year old! He is our rainbow baby, we had 3 miscarriages before he had him. I have a hormonal imbalance where my body doesn't make enough progesterone to carry babies therefore I have to take supplements as soon as I find out I'm pregnant and have extra care. Anyways, I am at major crossroads. My clock is ticking very loudly! But I was laid off in October and well my medical history with miscarriages makes me anxious to even try for a baby. I'm also thinking about going back to college. We are under a lot stress financially. But my clock is ticking. And it's gotten worse because my best friend just announced she's pregnant. I don't if I want to even try because once you struggle with infertility and loss, it's hard to deal with getting out of that mindset. Pregnancy scares are awful. It remindes me of all the months we tried and got bfns and sometimes it reminds me of the babies we lost. My mind is all over the place. I just needed to share this somewhere safe.