Head gone wrong!! Really wrong 💔

My boyfriend and I just argued. And it’s because usually I go down on him to get his you know dick all wet but apparently I wasn’t doing it right or whatever and he said “what was I doing” all judgmental and so I stopped and got back up and than he said mean and loud “learn how to suck a dick.” Like what the fuck I’m already self conscious when I’m naked for sex and when I already usually go down on him now this ??? This definitely made me close myself up. I cried like omg I cried and he was still being a prick saying “it’s not my fault you shouldn’t be crying that’s on you” like wow so I got mad and kept pushing him off. He than tired saying to be nice “you give good head babe just today you didn’t” like shut the f*** up I’m over you and am never going down on you.” Ughhhhh 😪💔

Honestly I don’t know what im asking whether it’s relationship advice or head advice but I told him I’d never ever forgive him.