i needed to get that off my chest😭

Fuck why is this so hard.

I miss him so much, we've been apart for about 4 months after a 6.5 years relationship, I love him more now than I ever did.

But it's just one of those relationships that wouldnt work ya know? We tried and tried in the end I was just so unhappy around him and I don't really have a reason why tbh.

He was a big drinker and that's my main reason for breaking it off. He never had time for me in the end, he wasn't ready to settle down properly, like we talked and talked about it but he just never settled.

Since breaking up alot of mean things have been said from both sides.

We were together along time and obviously now we have the same friends, but we can't be at the same place at the same time without tension or an argument.

So tonight we agreed to meet up and talk about everything so we can be around each other without the weirdness.

We talked about why we broke up and what not and I feel like it ended okay.

NOW I'm a bloody blubbering mess! I'm laying in bed balling my eyes out😭😢

All I want to do is tell him to come home but I just can't do that 😭