Runaway

So here it is. I'm 20 and my life is just a bunch of chaos. Two nights ago I had to hold my ex boyfriend down and call the cops because he was going to kill him self. On top of that my current boyfriend is upset with me because I went over there. ( I understand why ) but I only went over there because I had a bad feeling. I was right. Also I work at fast food. I hate it. I'm a manager and my dumb ass started dating my GM. He's higher than me. So work is hard. My great grandma passed away on Christmas eve. I don't want to go to her funeral tomorrow because all I can think about is how my ex almost killed himself. And this is the first funeral I've been too.

So I know I'm complaining a lot but I just want to know if there are any programs that let me volunteer out of state. Or something anyone can recommend? I want to leave I just don't know how. I want a fresh start and to clear my head.