I haven’t posted in a LONG time but I can use all the good vibes I can get right now. To start, my mom passed away the day after Thanksgiving. It was really unexpected, she was only 64. She was an alcoholic, so there’s a lot of complicated grief there, but I did have a relationship with her so it’s still really hard. She and my older sister weren’t speaking so all the official legal stuff is on me. I’m the executor of her will, I had to handle her remains, clean out her house, hire an attorney, close all of her accounts, and plan a memorial. She also lived thousands of miles away, so we had to travel to do all that, and deal with her horrible boyfriend who is taking all his grief out on me and my sister and saying we were terrible daughters. My husband and I live on a pretty tight budget, so all of these extra expenses (plus the holidays) have basically cleaned us out. I’m exhausted, stressed, and just now got hit with a wicked bad cold, that my 15-month-old has caught. I feel like I can’t even grieve the loss of my mom because there’s still so much to do. I just feel like I’m drowning. I know I’m not being a great mom because I’m such a hot mess, so there’s a lot of mom guilt going on now too. It’s just SO HARD. My husband has been amazing, but this has been going on for about a month and I think he’s just reached his breaking point of having to pick up the slack. I’m just praying things will get easier soon. I hate going through life feeling like I’m half-assing everything. My job, my marriage, motherhood, executing the will... I don’t expect anyone’s been in this situation, but if you made it through your worst possible situation and came out on the other end happier and healthier, I need to hear about it! Some positivity would go a long way! Thanks!