So my hand.... I don't know what I did to it but it's been freaking hurting.

I mean REALLY hurting. I open my car door and it feels like I have a knife stuck in my hand and it's cutting when I pull on something.

So I go to the doctor.

X-rays fine. "It's just sore, give it some rest and ice"

Weeks go by, it's still freaking hurting.

I get an MRI.

My doctor shows me the scan, it was freaky. But he showed me that all is well inside my hand.

Months go by.

MY HAND HURTS WORSE. My doctor gives me a shot in my hand to help the pain. But he still refers me to an orthopedic doctor.

I show up, my doctor has already told him everything. I get a quick pregnancy test because I'm getting an x-ray. But not the normal kind.

He takes me into this room, sits me in this tall chair. He puts my hand under a live x-ray.

He pulls out this very long and scary ass needle and says "im injecting dye into one side of your hand. If we see this dye leak into the other side of your hand, that means we found a very tiny rip in a tendon"

Me: alright

Him: ready?

Me: yas

He takes the needle and slowing pokes it into my hand. I feel the popping of skin. It hurt, duh. But it wasn't horrible. Not enough to even make me flinch. The whole needle had to go into my hand to get through the fat and muscle I guess.

He starts to inject the dye. I feel it go into my hand and he asks me if I'm okay. I say yes. I'm sitting perfectly still and silent and watching intently because I was intrigued and had never seen a live x-ray before and thought it was cool as hell.

He keeps looking up at me.. I make eye contact and he says "you know, I've done this to a lot of grown men and they actually cry over this. All of them cry. You're doing really well" and his nurses start laughing and saying "yup"

And I just laugh because lol. I'm just glad that he is trying to figure out why tf my hand hurts so bad.

Then I watch the x-ray and the dye leaked into the other side of my hand. He said "I knew it"

So basically, in the end nothing can be done. My hand is so tiny that he's afraid he will do more harm than good with surgery causing scar tissue that will lead to even more pain. Hes scared it will actually cripple my hand and someone my age doesn't need a cripple hand.

Anyways, it's still hilarious to me that he told me "grown men cry over this"

Look at me lol. Although, theres a chance it was less painful because i had just gotten a cortisone shot. Idk how that works exactly but still. I have never really feared needles even though that sucker was massive. Oh well.

Atleast im not Crazy and imagining pain in my hand. At least we found the source.

Damn to hell these dwarf hands. I'm a very very small person and that sucks. He said I had the hands of a child they are so small.