just got into a random fight with my brother. I have really bad ppd and am taking several medications. my mom babysits my son while I work and on my days off i’m usually at her place, 1. because our apartment is small and my son doesn’t have a lot of room to play and 2. because I still get really overwhelmed with him and just need her help. my brother threw that in my face (he’s still in high school so he lives with my mom obviously) and told me I never take care of my son and my mom does all the work. he doesn’t really know what’s going on, but he’s still right. I can’t take care of my own baby on my own. I feel like such a failure parent and like I don’t deserve to be a mom. my son deserves so much better than me. I struggle a lot with self harm and i’m having a really hard time right now and i’m in a really bad place. I don’t have any place to call the suicide hotline or anything cuz my baby is sleeping in our room (1 bed apartment) and my husband is out in the living room and can hear me in the bathroom. I feel so worthless and I just really need someone to talk to so i’m not alone