It has taken a lot of strength for me to post this because I’m not suppose to talk about this outside of work but here it goes...I work at a children’s hospital. I have only been working there for about 4 months. Let me just say that I have been working at a hospital for 3 years before this but mostly with the older age and only babies if it was on OB. We had a trauma come in..it was a 3 year old. She was dead already before they brought her in and I of course was working Christmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> when this happened. These usually don’t bother me because I’ve seen them a lot working in a hospital..but this one got me..I walked in to get what I needed done on the child and she’s white...dead..eyes rolled back and mouth blue..I tried my hardest not to cry or walk out but I couldn’t..I looked at my co worker and said “I need to go”. She said okay. And I went out crying.. I know what most of you will say..”that’s what you have to deal with when working at a children’s hospital” yes I get that, but to my defense it was Christmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a>...she was so little and all I could think of was her parents. I have a little girl myself and I could not imagine if I lost her. Especially this time of the year. Hold your babies tight, love them like tomorrow is there last day because you never know what tomorrow brings.

Update:

Thank you for all of your kind words, I read everyone and each one has been taken to heart. I’m glad I’m not the only one who doesn’t feel lifeless to this situation. I think what got me the most was the look on the EMTs face when he came out of the room. You could just tell he was so dead inside. I am going to remain anonymous because of the situation. Thank you 💕