Telling somebody

Hey, y’all!

I’ve finally started being honest with myself what happened to me. But I haven’t told anybody yet. I know I need to tell somebody, and I feel like if I don’t share it’s eventually going to eat me alive. At the same time, I am not ready to tell my parents or any other family members.

That being said, I know who will be the easiest for me to tell: my three best friends from college. The rape happened when I was in college. The four of us get together a few weekends out of the year, and I’m not actually worried about telling them so much. I mean, we have talked about the abuse that one of them had from her biological mother and lots of other really heavy topics. What I’m worried about is ruining our weekend. I don’t want to be a buzzkill, but I need to share. I even know what details I am comfortable sharing at this point in time and which ones I would prefer to keep private for the time being.

So two parts to this question:

1. Should I keep it to myself, or should I talk about it during our next get together since they are really the only ones I feel comfortable talking about it with right now?

2. If I should tell them, any tips for actually telling them? To making sure I don’t break down? Or anything else?

Thanks y’all.