Hi guys,

I lost my mum on the 4th August,

And I’m 17

My mum was my only parent, and my “dad” that raised me ( isn’t my biological dad)

Treats me different to my siblings, because since it’s their dad, they get away with stuff, and my brother and I argue a lot, he’s 13, but he’s bigger then me and we always fight. He gets treated like gold, and gets away with being mean to me and my younger sister.

I’ve never really had a home since 2016

And it’s been really hard, I don’t have much support and my family fight over the fact that my mum is gone and playing the blame game, instead of helping to raise my mums children..

I don’t know what to do anymore, I’m struggling so much, and ive been working since my mum passed, I just graduated in October and I’ve been couch surfing.

Everything is really hard and the fact that I don’t have a home makes things even harder.

I’ve got anxiety and depression and I’ve been off my mess since November 2016

Due to an overdose.

ive been struggling to deal with stress and I feel suicidal, I wake up in the middle of the night crying, and I only get 3 hours sleep at night, due to waking up and constantly feeling sick due to anxiety

I can’t cope anymore, I want it to stop, but I can’t deal with my family anymore, everything’s too hard and I want to die