so.. I have been married to my middle school boyfriend for almost 10 years now, and we have an 8 y/o and 4 y/o, well I think even before my 4 y/o came along I was unhappy. The best I can describe it is we grew apart. I still love him but I have no romantic feelings toward him. we do have sex, not very often but enough I guess.. idk.. so almost 2 years ago we opened our marriage just cuz we are each others firsts and only so we, mainly I, wanted to explore. I had a few "boyfriends" nothing sexually cuz I wanted more of the emotionally connection... but I found someone. and it got kinda of serious quick. we still have not had sex. but we both say we are emotionally in love. he wants my future whenever he can have me and I am questioning everything.. a big part of me wants to run off with him in a sense.. I don't want to leave my husband with our debt. I am not bitch and I don't wanna fight over the kids but I am not leaving them.. I just need advice.. I just kinda feel I will never be at my happiest is I stay. but I am scared to go and hurt him.. I have been recommended counseling but I kinda don t even wanna try. we have been through a lot. I kinda just wish I was in a place and brave enough to just separate. any advice?