Venting

So I was diagnosed with pcos in June 2016 literally two months before from my wedding. That took a big toll on me but the person I am I wouldn’t show it. I felt like I failed my husband. So when I talked to a few friends and family members they always hit me with the it’ll happen when it does. I just wanted to scream like put yourself in my shoes. People just don’t get it. Anything I wanted in life I accomplished but this. It’s just ugh. People always like don’t question God, which I would never. I just feel like I got to the point of why me. Did I curse myself when I was younger saying I don’t want kids, I’ll adopt. I’ve done my research changed my eating habits and nothing. I was a former cheerleader and a veteran so working out and being in shape wasn’t a problem for me but I don’t know what else. I know it’s meds out there but I prefer natural remedies. I felt like I lost myself and I really want to get to the point of my life to where I don’t think about it constantly. I don’t have anyone around me with this to help me with my journey. Plus I don’t like everyone in my personal business but I’m just at my breaking point. It’s that’s I feel like people can become insensitive thinking their helping you.

Sidenote* I have a big family like my great grandmother had 21 kids(about 5 died at birth but one twin died while the other lived). I’m literally the only female thats grown without a child. So talk about a big ass fertile family lol.