Can y'all PLEASE EXPLAIN SUMTIN TO ME😡...😢...😲...😭🤣😲

I think the Emojis can explain to you the internal experience I am having. I have noticed that, with old flames that I have had sexual relationships with, I find out they meet someone else and they take them on the same kind of dates, or use the same methods to woo the other person as they did me. what is up with THAT?!? I MEAN WASNT WHAT WE HAD SPECIAL AND UNIQUE?!?! I MEAN FREAKING SERIOUSLY?!? COME ON!!!!

First instance was a guy I dated in college. Oh my gah, I was obsessed and in love and attached to this man like no other. it was bad. Anyways, I used to treasure going with him to different places, and we would always choose Trader Joe's to go grocery shopping, we would do these cockamamey things, and then he ended the relationship! so then, we kept in touch by my own choice and I found out he would go do these kinds of things with her, too!

and then, a guy I feel like I fucked up with my not staying in the same city as him and pursuing a relationship with him, I just found out that he met his now wife where he and I met, and in pretty much the exact same context as me and him!!!?! what is up with that?!? WHY?!?

And now, I think to myself, finding a partner is kind of like finding clothing, food, anything that you can use the selection process for. you can use the same methods for finding a choosing a partner as you did with previous partners (or things that you choose for yourself). the first time it happened, I was heartbroken. and now, this time, I am intrigued, and find it quizzical! and of course a bit upset, but honestly, now that I saw the second guys video of getting married to this chick, and hearing their story , I'm feeling a bit better about myself. it wasn't a big deal. they met like he and I met. it's beautiful of course. but for an ex, humph, yes it feels better for me now. and, he and I had a shot. we hooked up twice. and, fucker didn't make an effort to call me back until I moved away. and, I wonder if he learned from me to not let this other chick go.

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I'm so upset!

this is so poetic and absurd and so much emotional Ness!!!

Ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!! 😡😡😡😡😡😲😲😲😲🙁😐😳🙁😖😖😟.

and I don't know where to go with this but this is very therapeutic. so, have a good day. thank you for reading.

btw he is a singer and I am too so this would be GREAT material for making a killer record and a shit ton of money since I'm broke. 😋. thanks and peace out!