I know most people find being pregnant a wonderful experience and actually enjoy the looks from others and general good things that come with showing off their baby bumps they feel sexy and beautiful.

I am not one of those females.

I look and feel disgusting.

I will never get to do the cute maternity photoshoots with the bulging baby bump because I just look like I have gained a bunch of weight for no reason.

I don't fit into the typical look of what a pregnant woman should.

it's extremely depressing.

on top of feeling like I'm a giant blob, my husband has taken intimacy in to his own hands if you know what I mean. he doesn't desire me like he did and doesn't want to touch me because he's afraid he will hurt the baby.

when we do have sex it's about him getting his rocks off as soon as he can so he can go to bed. neverminding the fact sex is uncomfortable for me because I feel so disgusting.

it also is not giving me any pleasure, no release in anyway it feels more like a chore for me then it's worth.

I'm not expecting any comments although I'm sure there will be. I'm not looking for pity or anything like that. I just needed to get this out so that it stops consuming me.

so for wasting your time I'm sorry