I had a ridiculously difficult birth with my first daughter, I was diagnosed with severe preeclampsia at 35.5 weeks and induced the next day, I was given a mag drip and had my daughter, all was well for her, thankfully. But my blood pressure wouldn't go down and a few days later they had to give me the magnesium again but I had an allergic reaction to it, they gave me Benadryl then put me on two different blood pressure meds for the next couple of months.

Here I am pregnant again and I'm freaking out wondering if it was the right decision. I'm only nine weeks but I'm 26 and my blood pressure is already prehypertension naturally, I can't relax, I have high anxiety and now I'm freaking out because my chances of getting preeclampsia again are at least 25% or more. If I get it again, what are the doctors going to give me so I don't have a stroke or seizure??

Am I crazy to want to go back after just having seen my OB a few days ago so I can ask him the million questions going through my head?