Don’t know what to do

I miss him so much. He was my first everything (sex, kiss, love) He made me laugh hard. He made me feel like the happiest girl ever. He always made sure I was safe. He called regularly. He texted me throughout the day. I’m so glad I met him, he truly is a good man. I really wish we could last forever, but it might be too late to turn back time. I just hope he’s ok & just pray for him everyday. I love you R ❤️😟