I have no idea what i'm doing.

i still feel like this isn't real for me. i'm 14+4.. not even showing, i'm starting to lose appetite .. i'm still smoking cigs. i just feel like i don't have anyone interested in my pregnancy with me.. which makes sense becus no one knows yet besides my family. this is my first baby, & im not even sure if this is what my s/o wants too. am i getting depressed? is that really a thing.. lol i just want someone to talk to and motivate me. anyone else due july 12? or anyone else feeling the way i am ??