Sighhhh...

So my husband and I decided we were going to TTC this month and I went all out on reading article after article about TTC and bought prenatal and taking them and buying preseed and charting everything I could to make sure I know what I'm doing and when plus 4 pregnancy test and a pack of ovulation test, like I was ready and prepared and motivated to try as hard as we could to make this our month. Then I tried to

put on my wedding dress yesterday.....it didn't zip...my wedding is in month and a half and my dress doesn't fit... I paid 900 for that dress and I'm going to wear it! I didn't think I put on that much weight honestly and I thought if I get pregnant now I won't actually put on a lot by the time the wedding comes around and I can announce it there in front of everyone I love that I'm with child. However now it looks like that plan is gone, I'm going on a really strict diet and I'm working out everyday leading up to the wedding, which isn't healthy if you're trying for a baby. I know I just have to wait till the wedding is over but like I was crushed at the fact my dress doesn't fit and now I have to put a pause on TTC when I planned everthing out already and tried really hard for this month to be our month. Anyways I just needed to get this off my chest because I am keeping TTC from my family I can't talk to them about it and it just sucks. Thanks for dealing with my rant!