first of all please do not reply with any hateful comments..

so i lost my virginity when i was 17 and a junior in high school. turns out i got pregnant that first time. i ended up getting an abortion. so a couple years later me and my boyfriend were blacked out drunk (not an excuse, i know) but he came inside me and well i got pregnant again. he gave me the plan b pill but it didn’t work. i was really going to keep this baby but his dad was literally threatening me and then he started threatening me and i was so in love with this guy i did everything he told me to do. and i ended up getting another abortion.

this is something that i think about EVERY SINGLE DAY. i think about how i would have two beautiful kids and everything i ever wanted. i cry about it still 5 years later. it’s hard and every day i wish i could go back in time. this is something i have to live with everyday.

i’m scared. those times i got pregnant so easily and now every time we have sex he cums in me and it’s been like that for a couple months now and i haven’t gotten pregnant. i’m scared that i won’t be able to have kids again. i cry at the fact that all i want is a baby and because i was dumb i might not be able to have any.

what do you guys think? am i not able to have kids now? it is so heartbreaking so once again please don’t be hateful