I think I’m out

Had my first US yesterday. Went in expecting to hear our baby’s heartbeat. But found out the baby is 2 weeks behind where it should be (I know when I ovulated and when I conceived) and they couldn’t find a heartbeat. I go back in a week to see if there is any growth but I know it would take a miracle. I miscarried last Feb and I am just devastated. She doesn’t think there’s anything wrong with me because my first pregnancy was incredibly smooth and I have a beautiful 3 year old boy. I just can’t believe we have to go through this again. The grief of loss, the stress of TTC and if I do get pregnant the chance I could end up in the same place.

Sorry for being so long winded I just needed to get it out. I wish you all the best and hope for happy healthy pregnancies and beautiful summer babies.