Depression

Well as of late I’ve been wearing more black, cus obviously I’m self conscious. I know those two things are two different things! But hear me out I still in highschool and my own dad has called me a goth just cause I like combat boots?! I have been self conscious about my body for a while now. I believe I have extra fat in my waist and hip area. I find it embarrassing. My boyfriend finds its okay. I’m bigger then him! I wanted his sweatshirt and he literally told me “im not sure if I can find one that would look good on you.” I didn’t take that seriously but it still hurt. I know he doesn’t mean to hurt me but still. I’m a pathetic person. If I feel to much pain or my feelings are hurt I cry and cry and wish I was gone. I’ve been like this for a while now. Advice?

P.S I often suck in my gut cause my family doesn’t support my body or myself.

Bad angle but that’s my stomach. I hate it.