New math class for spring term

Tomorrow I’m going to a new math class and I’m feeling scared/nervous because for my last 2 terms I had the same course/class so it’s what I was used to. I knew what to expect and now I’m just going into something new. I don’t know why this makes me antsy but the classroom has a fixed amount of computers and I had to get instructor permission to join the class since I was dropped from my other math course cause the instructor no longer taught there

Anyways he told me that he is willing to put me in the class but I won’t have a computer so that means I have to bring my laptop. Something about that makes me feel uncomfortable like I just wanna blend in I don’t want to be the only one using a laptop but I don’t wanna wait until a new term to take it

Then there’s the fact that math is literally my weakest point, no joke. I don’t even know my freaking times tables and I’m 21 years old! I have tried learning but it doesn’t stick then I get frustrated and it’s like a cycle.

I just wanna feel relaxed and whatever about it but I’m not like that at all😩