Is it weird.....

Is it weird that I’d rather masturbate than have sex.... I love my boyfriend to pieces. Like I’m gonna marry that boy, but he doesn’t really know how to satisfy me; which is fine I’ve gotten used to it after 5 years it feels good don’t get me wrong...I just don’t get that big orgasm...like ever...and I usually get more excited to be home alone and able to masturbate, orgasm, then go to sleep...than I do having sex with him... I feel a little guilty but at the same time I need my fix too..