Depression/ sexual abuse

I don't know if I should have written this in sexual abuse or here. So if y'all read my other note, if not, it's in the sexual abuse group. And I wrote 3 notes. Well anyway.

I have been having depression lately. I am insecure because I was sexual abused. Do you think it's because of depression or because I was sexual abused? The person who did is still with me today. And I feel uncomfortable and scared when I am near him. So I don't know if he mest it up or because I am just depressed.

And not only that. My mom has been mean. And I feel like she thinks I am dumb, and doesn't know anything. And the more she does that the more I feel like I am dumb. I don't know what to do. And I can't tell my parents because I feel like it's because I was sexual abused, and I feel scared when I tell them. And I am homeschooled so I can't tell any of my teachers. Because my teacher is my mom. Please give me advice!!!!

P.S. Don't write anything mean please! Thanks!!