So before you judge me... I have 3 children 11yrs 3yrs & 1yrs old. was supposed to be 6 children but all of their twins didn't make it. ( yes every time ive been pregant it has been twins) I took my 3yrs old twin home she passed away at 11weeks old. So I am bitter and in pain. I just took a test and found out I'm pregnant again even though we use protection so I'm pissed. and it's not with my children's father it's with potential new bae. he wants children but I don't I said if I'm married and my husband really does want kids then cool but I believe I've had one to many children out of wedlock. (don't judge me it's popular in the uk) any way. I feel shitty because I lost children I never believed I would be the one to consider termination. but I'm scared that the same fate awaits me if I do go through with this pregnancy. and if it does I will need to be put in a mental home because I am already still dying inside. don't forget I just buried my daughter almost 3yrs ago and I lost a child in pregnancy a year ago. UPDATE!!! im pregnant with triplets... i think God is giving me back the babies i lost... i think i should keep them??? im still afraid of them leaving me before time... im so torn 😢