So...

I go the job!

It will be my second job (part time), as I already have a full time job.

I will be busy as hell. My full time job is 4 am - 12:30 pm and my new job is 2:30 pm - 7:30 pm.

Worth it though. It will help me pay back everything I have in collections (medical bills).

Luckily, I haven't had many health issues since August/September.

Unfortunately, I passed out last night. Which has never happened before. I have "blacked out" before (eyes go black, ears ring, legs go out - but I can still crawl and move).

Although many are saying it could actually be a seizure. Is that possible? It doesn't happen often. I haven't noticed any particular "triggers" either.

But I've met this friend through Instagram (my cat/emotional support animal's IG actually) and her service dog's IG account. I was talking to her about my fear. She had said something about it sounding like Lupus, a condition her mother and aunt both have.

My illness has never made sense at all, but looking up this disease, everything makes sense. But that scares me even more.

However, I have this second job now (both jobs pay great). This friend lives in a different state though. But the area of her mother's specialist is about a days drive away.

I'm hoping with this new job, I can pay off my current health debt and figure what the fuck is wrong with me!!!

FYI: the only things the doctors and specialists have found is that my liver is enlarged, my kidney is enflamed, and my ovaries are highly thickened. They say my insides could be compared to a 50 year old woman.

Wish me luck!!