sigh lol

okay so.. I'm into BDSM (im 16) and i really want to find someone around my age who is opened to it and wants to learn about it more with me

but im so shy when it comes to showing my body or doing anything sexual (im a virgin but i do sext sometimes) and it's mainly because I'm overweight and it's extremely hard to lose weight.. i wanna do so many kinky things and explore myself and show myself off more but i don't know how when I feel disgusting. I've been going to the gym but I feel like I'll still be shy even if I'm skinny or fat. any advice?