Goodbye mamas... 😢

I lost my baby at 7 weeks and just starting miscaraging yesterday( I would have been 9 weeks) I do consider myself a mom, I have a baby just not in my arms. I fed her, I talked to her, I kept her safe. I now understand how mothers and fathers who have miscarried feel. You're brave and strong people. How do you guy come to terms your little one is gone? How did you clean out the nursery? 
My baby's my angel now and I hope soon he or she will have a little brother or sister all I can do is tell myself God has a plan for me and my fiancé. From the beginning he planned for this baby to come home to him instead of us. Just wish he would tell us why... 😢