preggo & losing my mind

I don’t know where I’m going to start this, maybe by just asking for a little support please? I’ll take constructive criticism.

I live with my grandmother & I’m expecting a little one of my own. ( what a blessing ! ) I know most people will say that I shouldn’t have a baby if I don’t have my own house. I’m 18 going on 19. I do not plan on staying with my grandma much longer. She works 24/7, as she is a manager at Walmart. My SO and I stay with her because we’re helping her raise my three younger brothers.

My mom does not & refuses to raise her children, although she lives here! She is 38 and she rather spend all her time with her man than her own children. My SO are basically raising children that aren’t ours & she’s still ungrateful to us. She walks around the house throwing fits, slamming doors, making horrible posts about us on Facebook, tries to fight with my SO & just the emotional abuse I’ve been putting up with years is so damaging. I’m not dealing with it anymore. Since I was a child, she’s been nothing more but a burden. She let every single boyfriend she had mistreat me. She is stressing me out to the point, I’m scared to miscarriage.

My SO tried to reason with her and asked that they find a way to get along out of respect for me & she completely ignored him. I know the reasonable thing to do is move out. I can’t & many of you will probably say, it’s my own fault. I cannot & will not leave my brothers to fend for themselves & I won’t be calling child protective services to get them removed. My grandmother is on the verge of kicking her out for all the ugly things she says & does. She literally acts like a spoiled 16 year old literally girl.

I also want to point out that’s she’s trying to call all the shots on my pregnancy. I think not. She’s trying to tell me who I need to pick as godparents & who I can’t pick. Who my child should be around & who it shouldn’t . Like, please, get a life. You’re excited but all for the wrong reasons. I refuse to let my mom ruin another life.

I’m sorry for the long post, I just needed somewhere to vent. Even if I get no responses, I feel a little better.