My Life Right Now

I self harmed for the first time today because I couldn't handle my life. My crush blocked me as a joke and isn't ever gonna talk to me again and this is the second time this has happened but with a different guy. And my parents are fighting and have been since I was little and probably before that too. And on top of all of that I still haven't come out to my family about being pansexual. I just need someone right now.