Am I the only one?

Am I the only one to feel this way? Ok so a lil about me I have never been a very open person to anyone close to me. I feel kinda shy if that makes sense. Ever since I was a lil girl I had trouble expressing my feelings and thoughts. To friends it’s not so bad but to like parents and siblings and hubby including exs. I couldn’t just open up and talk. So with ttc I am basically alone like I wish my hubby was more involved on his own so I don’t really talk to him. He doesn’t ask so I don’t say anything. How do I get him to be involved more then me telling him things and feel shot down. I know he wants a baby but sometimes it feels like I am doing all alone just asking for his seed.