Feelings...

I do not know how to describe how I feel, I don’t think it has a title like anxiety or depression I just feel down. I have the implant and haven’t had my period for about four months, I have had unprotected sex as I use contraception. I live with multiple people, all the girls around me are on there periods and going through weird moods that you have on your period.

I’ve had a few issues recently regarding men, five months ago I broke up from a year relationship soon after I started having sex with somebody else, this guy was “sweet” when he wanted sex. I always felt like I couldn’t say no to him which is why I gave it to him. This is the wrong way of doing things I know I just don’t have the confidence to say no.

I’m an extremely lively person, I’m tough on the outside and soft and gentle on the inside. People assume I can say no but I can’t. I stopped with him as I was away from him over Xmas.

I soon got into a fling with an ex from a few years ago. This guy lives in wales whilst I’m in London... a long distance relationship is what I fear the most. I find it so difficult being in a relationship if you aren’t basically living with the person.

I’m rambling on, this is the first time I’ve done this, I may just be confused about everything but I doubt anybody will actually read up to this point so I guess I’ll stop here and if I get responses then I’ll go into detail and try reach out for help..