ttc fostering?

we have nren ttc for two years now and today i learned there may be a chance to foster an 8 week old baby. the baby was born to a drug addicted mother. i know in fostering you may not get to keep the baby. i would love to foster this baby but i don't think my current place could pass the house check. i am hurt that God would even hang this in my face when i want a baby so bad. i can't stop thinking about itm ugh...