Angry at my ex. Up date in comments

Hey, I'm so angry at my ex because he gave me 2 'options' get an abortion or he was breaking up with me. Well I packed and left pretty soon after.

But it's not what he done to me, it's my baby, I'm due in 2 weeks and he has not even as much rang to find out anything about the baby yet.

There's times there when I feel the venom bubble up inside me like lava ready to erupt and I just want to ring him up or call to his house with his perfect girlfriend (A.K.A his lapdog!) and abuse the absolute life out of him and ask him why the fuck he cannot take real for his actions too?

Why the fuck do I have to go back to work a few weeks after my baby is born?

Why the fuck am I still working 2 weeks away from my due date?

Why the fuck did you literally make me feel like shit because I didn't want to have sex with you?

Why the hell did you continue to fuck me while I was bent over your bed crying my eyes out because sex was hurting?

Why the fuck did you blame me for 'not taking my pill'? He was the last person I wanted to father my child, but it is ok for him to run?

I cannot even get any child support because of him, I know he won't sign the birth certificate, so i cannot get any sort of help, therefore I've to go back sooner than I should.

It's supposed to be the happiest time of my life, which it is! I adore my baby boy, I cannot wait to meet him!

It's just he frustrates me so much the way he's still swanning off out having fun, not worrying about a baby to raise or how you're gonna feed him?

I just wanna scream, but I don't actually want to draw him on me, I want him to stay away but I want to shout at him with the above!