Iv decided I’m not going out anymore!

I have a 2 year old and a 9 week old and everything is so hard! I hate going out! So Iv decided I’m not going to anymore! My 2 year old is starting nursery soon for 2 mornings a week so she will be able to get out and have fun. Atm I seem to be out everyday and I feel like I’m in such a rush to get myself and both girls ready! My baby is still feeding on demand! (Formula) I get myself so upset and stressed out trying to get ready to go out I end up having a mental breakdown! That’s not an exaggeration! I start crying hysterically and my husband has to come home to calm me down! So that’s it! I give up! I’m not going out anymore! Life is too hard atm! 😢😢