Feeling hopeless, lost, angry and confused!

Sorry this is so long! I’m new to doing things like this but I could really use someone that understands or has some wisdom or words of encouragement about what I am going through. We’ve been trying to conceive baby #1 for 7 years. I’ve had 3 miscarriages... October 2016, January 2017 and September 2017 and those are just the ones I am sure of! In July 2017 my OBGYN Referred us to a reproductive gynecologist after finding out I have low AMH 0.20. I am 32 years old and also a type 2 diabetic for many years! My fiancé is perfect! 👌. It’s definitely not his issue at all! Here’s my back store I guess...After my first 2 miscarriages I worked really hard on getting my A1C down... I was hoping to get it to a 6 or 6.5 but I killed it and got it down to 5.6!! I was so proud of myself and not only did I get it down but I’ve kept it down. My OBGYN decided she would prescribe me Clomid since my A1C was in check. I took 50mg of clomid for 4 months, days 5-9 with progesterone blood work days 21 and 23 (I remember thinking this isn’t going to work.) I already knew I ovulated on my own because I got pregnant naturally 2 times . My day 21 progesterone was always in between 12 and 16 which indicated that I ovulated and day 23 was always low. My doctors office would always call and tell me “sit back” because my period will be coming soon. My 4th month on clomid I got a very faint positive pregnancy test at home!! (I thought I was going crazy!) my doctors office got me in right away for blood work to confirm I was pregnant... my HCG level came back as a 6! My doctors office had me come back in the next day and my number was definitely going up it was 72 but my progesterone was 5.3 and I need to start taking progesterone... totally fine by me I’ll do anything to keep this pregnancy but my doctor wasn’t in the office that week and couldn’t prescribe it to me till she got back a week later!... by then it was too late and I had already started to Miscarry :( . I was so angry and sad and my fiancé was out of town for work! It took me sometime to get (not over it) but start to feel better again but knew I wanted to try right away as soon as I got my period back. In October that’s exactly what we did... we tried naturally in October and it didn’t work so in November my reproductive gynecologist prescribed me 150mg clomid, a trigger shot and progesterone for 14 days and just like 50mg I ovulated but I didn’t get pregnant. December came and we decided to step up our game hahaa... we started doing injectables gonal-f 150mg, trigger shot, <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a> and progesterone for 14 days...I stared the meds on cycle day 3-7 and was already ready for my <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a>, my follicle was 18 on day 7... I was bummed when I didn’t get pregnant but I kinda had a feeling it didn’t work. We did exactly the same thing in January, cycle day3-7, 150mg gonal-f, trigger shot, <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a>, progesterone for 14 days and this month I was absolutely certain I was pregnant!!...I have real symptoms! I tested 10 days past <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a> just to check to make sure the trigger shot was out of my system and it was. Last night before putting in my progesterone cream I notice I had a light brown discharge resembling the start of my period (I tried to shrug it off) and this morning I tested again with a cheap Walmart.88 test and it was negative 😢 today is 12 days past my <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a>... I know it’s technically early but I can’t help feeling defeated.